Let's chat among the roses in my garden.
What can I say?
Each day I am learning that "I am Enough".
But still it is a hard lesson to really accept in myself.
Today I want this to be about just opening myself up,
sharing where I am at with this Covid19 pandemic.
In March when it began it just took my breathe away.
Really I could hardly breathe and I was having days where
I could hardly walk across the room as I was so dizzy.
I just panicked even more with each day and
finally called the doctor.
I wasn't sure what was happening to me, it was terrifying.
My blood pressure was high.
The doctor suggested I keep a journal each day of my health issues
and as I have written it down I realized the panic was causing the dizziness
and the high blood pressure.
Once I realized what was happening it has gotten better and I have
been able to say to myself "take a breathe", "relax", "it will get better".
It has been a time of reflection too.
It has been amazing to see what has and is coming my way since noticing.
As always I have a long way to go, but I am learning more of who I am and what I want.
Listening to an interview yesterday and then another one today just fed into
those things I am learning.
Deepak Chopra was reminding that after each global crisis comes change
and we become stronger.
He reminded me the we must acknowledge our compassion within
and that with every action comes love. We can become a source for happiness.
Sheryl Crow said she was keeping her stress level down for herself and family
by avoiding the news most of the time and just taking moments to remember who we are.
Katie Couric has the nicest interviews and though she gives the
news in her newsletters, she also takes time to have positive stories.
On another interview yesterday I was reminded to meditate,
which I have never been good at.
Meditating is something I need to learn to do much better.
I also need to learn to eat better and take care of myself with regular walking.
I need to open up to creativity and make time for it.
Why is it so hard to take care of ourselves?
How can we accept that who we are is indeed enough?
We are blessed and yet we don't allow ourselves to accept it.
Just seeing these roses blesses me each and every day.
Knowing you are there, dear ones, blesses me.
Taking a walk or sipping a cup of tea with a friend (of course at 6ft. distance)
is truly a blessing.
I think I will struggle with this until the day my life is over,
but isn't that what growing is all about?
Is this a time of reflection for you as we struggle together?
Is there something you are learning and want to do differently?